Throughout my short time being a mother to young children, I have tried to explain many times the love, exhaustion, thrill, terror and wonder of being a parent. I have failed many times.

I honestly don't know if it's possible to explain parenthood to a non parent. It's not for lack of trying or desire to connect on this level but rather a sheer reality that there is nothing like it in the world. There is nothing like watching your child snuggle next to you after a long day, take their first steps or celebrate their 4th birthday. Parenthood is waves of emotion that wash over you time and time again.

The cries, the whines, the pouts, the giggles, the smile, each one experienced but not truly felt. The desire to hold onto something that is so fleeting and be present for each moment but watching it pass by you without a moments notice. Parenthood is surreal.

Today I told my 10 month old "I don't want you to stand up in the tub." I want him to stay little. I want him to stay complacent. I want him to stay a baby. But I yearn to know the person he will be. I am so thrilled to know him as a child, teenager and adult. I want things to stay but I am so thrilled for them to move forward.

I accept that I can't be present for each moment. I've come to embrace that each year passes so quickly and that I will delight in these sweet memories and forget stressful ones as I and they grow older. This babyhood and needing that zaps me of all my energy is so short but so overwhelming and exhausting. It's so much love, fear, anxiety, and happiness rolled into a big old shit show of crazy and I wouldn't change it.

For now I'll sit by the bath tub and sing the songs and do my best to enjoy each moment and I hope you will too.

Mar 12, 2024

Breastfeeding During Illness

Every new mom can tell you that getting sick and having to take care of a baby are two things that should never go together! There is nothing worse than trying to care for yourself and your baby at the same time. This predicament can be made even worse when you are breastfeeding. There can be fear of passing the illness on to the baby and making sure you are taking care of yourself is crucial. Here are some steps and ideas to utilize when sick and breastfeeding.

Benefits and Risks of Different Birth Settings

If you are newly pregnant, you may be wondering where the best place for you to give birth in Kansas City would be. We are so lucky to have such phenomenal care providers in every sector in Kansas City so we have put together a quick benefits and risks check list for you to help you decide what would be the best location for you. Take a look and fill out our contact sheet so we can help walk with you as you make this important decision!

Dec 16, 2021

Goldie's Birth

One of my dreams has always been to have a peaceful, beautiful home birth where I can give birth in the water and immediately snuggle up with baby in my bed! That was the plan for three years as we tried and tried to get pregnant with Goldie. Finally in January of 2021 we found out that we were pregnant again and I immediately texted my midwife with the news. The 10 months of pregnancy flew by and soon it was my due date, september 25th! We had everything set up and I was getting so excited as I would be the first of my sisters to give birth to one of the fab four. Nothing happened for five full days after my due date. Finally on the morning of the 29th I started contracting at 7:30 AM. I was so excited because with Fred, I started contractions at 7 and had a baby by 2:30! I just knew that that would be the case here to

Jul 30, 2021

Hiring A Doula During Covid

So you are pregnant and want to hire a doula, congratulations!

We are also currently living during a worldwide pandemic that doesn’t seem to be interested in slowing down or cooling off.

We are as frustrated as you are!

Mar 23, 2021

So You Are Having Twins?

Conceiving and growing two (or more!) babies at once rather than one is a pretty big deal. There are two tiny humans inside of you, which means your body is responsible for the development and health of double what a singleton Mom is responsible for. Is this a reason to panic?

Feb 1, 2021

What Is In A Doula Certification?

I have a few people each month contact me in search of the best doula certification to embark on their journey in becoming a doula. We also have clients ask us every now and then “what is your certification and why was it the one you chose?” I want to spell out doula certifications for you in this blog to help everyone better understand what it is, what it looks like and how we get to where we are.